Movie Snacksā11 mini chips more cookies, 1.5 packets seaweed, 1 gummy bear, 100g carrots
200g cabbage + 100g enoki + 1 tin Ayam tuna
1 can Coke Zero
Activity: (2177kcal out)
3h ultimate
14,252 steps total
Other Observations:
The not-counting-calories starts tomorrow (Iād already planned today out) and ngl Iām kind of quite nervous about itā¦ I donāt trust myself to not overeat. BUT itās definitely a good time to do so rn because as expected, itās not normal to just continue eating hours on end with my Friend here. Maybe mimicking his eating times/stopping when done will do me some good. Plus itās normal to share a bit of food here and there, which I wonāt be able to do if I religiously weighed every bit out. I suppose I also do need the practice with eating semi-intuitively.
Iām already giving it a bit of a go: ate some pesto pasta without tracking, and poured the nooch on with it weighing. Gives me a bit of anxiety but itās all good.
I honestly have no idea if Iāll be able to do this whole no-tracking calories thing. Iām scared that I wonāt be able to reach my goals if I donāt, because I really do not trust my body: I feel really huge and I feel fatter Iāll take it a step at a time, I think Iāll count some and be a bit more relaxed? IDK AGH
Honestly fitting in all my food within 8h when around friends without seeming like an absolute pig is actually harder than I realised xD
@Penthesilea thanks!! thatās very true haha. Hm thatās definitely a goal, but for me the purging usually only happens if I eat a purge trigger (ice cream) or eat til I feel so stuffed and sick I HAVE to get it out. So focusing on the actions before would probably be more useful for me!
Weight: 53.1kg still feeling really bloated and keep second guessing my calculationsā¦but wtv Iāll just keep to this and it WILL go down. I still have 2 weeks.
Food Intake: (1596kcal in)
112g NewHuel, MatchaFS
1 Julieās PB biscuit
3T minced meat w Chye Sim
100g pumpkin w nooch
Picnicā150g red bean fan bun, 100g carrots, 100g+ cottage cheese, 1 packet seaweed, 2 Ritz cheese crackers
Activity: (2349kcal out) dont have to kill myself at the gym to burn! Was a fairly chill day
1h dance
16,940 steps total
Other Observations:
Iām eating a lot slower with my Friend around.
4 days in a consistent 500kcal caloric deficit and staying at 53.1kg? Hoping for the whoosh effect hahha.
LOL turns out I canāt not count calories yet ahaha but knowing I have the option has already led me to a better place. Iāll be going out with my Friend tomorrow for lunch at an Unagi place Iāve been eagerly awaiting! Hope it goes well hehe.
Bread: So I said I wouldnāt eat bakery buns til 12 Sept and I didnāt (except that one fake time)ā¦ since itās 13th, I promptly got a red bean bun with my Friend, pouncing on the opportunity since I have to eat normally around him. Itās actually done wonders for my eating habits to match it with someone normal. It was still a little hard to stop, but manageable! And also not as mind blowing when not emotionally tied ngl. But Iāve done it once, I can do it again! I have a few more buns in the freezer to eat in moderation. There is no good or bad food,
200g pumpkin + 100g mushroom + 1/2 tin tuna + 1 bite black carrot cake
Activity: (2701kcal out)
walking everywhere, 25,007 steps total
30min HIIT
Other Observations:
After the gym week and 52.5kg, I had a 1000ish kcal surplus, bounced to 53.1, and despite having 500-700kcal deficits consistently for the next 6 days, itās still stayed at 53.1ā¦can anyone posit a guess at what may be happening? Itās getting quite frustrating! Shouldnāt the water weight from the binge have disappeared too? Also I have barely eaten outside food since, so it is very unlikely to be counting calories wrongly.
Iām really happy I was able to go out for lunch at a Michelin Unagi restaurant Iāve been eyeing for YEARS. Without feeling distressed. And eating some ice cream, without purging it (crossed my mind tho). Once again just shows me that when I put my mind to it after reflecting and realising what the issues wereā¦I can change my life for the better. Insane binge cravings have also virtually vanished, and I know my Friend being here has definitely helped regulate my eating. Have (without much effort) resisted a lot of food though! Like Supper (just explained I was intermittent fasting) and all the yummy treats he was buying (although I usually tried a bite)
Iāll be p annoyed if I donāt lose at least a little bit tomorrowā¦Iāve had a 3203kcal deficit in the last 6 days yet itās stayed at exactly the same weight (yes thatās accounting for the mini binge surplus of 700kcal)
53kg is a small weight! I forget how tall you are, if you ever said, but it could just be that with the calorie restriction and all the exercise, youāve made yourself into such a lean machine that this is a stable weight. How did you arrive at the 50kg goal, anyway? Was it based on any kind of medical or sciency reason? Or just a nice round number? Is there any way you could measure your body fat percentage? I bet itās low.
@fernly 153cm, so Iām really short! HAHA. Hm I suppose so, but according to the law of thermodynamics the calorie deficit has to go SOMEWHERE! Yeah 50 is a nice round number, but honestly I still have a lot of fat to lose (no joke, the kind that if I said I was trying to lose fat no one would think I shouldnāt).
@Penthesilea very random note but I always thought you were a guy HAHAAHHA ooooooops. I was thinking about that, but Iām not a week from my period which is usually where I start to feel really bloated; Iām supposedly 1 day after ovulation hmmmm. Iāll admit I donāt really understand the cycle much though.
Hah, you may be a Breathetarian!
Seriously, once I put it in primitive Amurrican units, 5-foot tall 117 pounds sounds like a very reasonable body configuration. I strongly doubt that you have āa lotā of anything to lose.
Weight: 53.1kg this is gonna be the bane of my existence I swear
Food Intake: (1624kcal in)
1/2 of (NewHuel, ChocFS)
coffee
191g bread
100g ea of (cabbage, pumpkin, mushroom)
2 chips more mini cookies
1 packet Apollo wafers
Makisan salad
Activity: (2475kcal out)
40min Kickboxing Juggernaut
2.2km cycle
1.5h dance class & more prac
13,254 steps total
Other Observations:
working so hard for no visible results (not just the scale, but visibly I feel equally or more squishy + bloated/bulging stomach) is so demotivating sigh Iām tempted to just screw it.
literally the last 7 days has been 53.1kg!! UGH. at a consistent deficitā¦if Iām maintaining at a 1000kcal deficit, Iām terrified Iāll gain at maintenance. .-.
Went clothes shopping (like a big one) for the first time, AND IT FELT SO AMAZING HOLY CRAP I basically fit into anything I tried off the racks that was free size?? Ok not all of them and it was a really good store for me but still!! I could decide ānah I donāt like that because itās uglyā instead of because it didnāt fit me.
Iām trying to look at weekly weight averages of the last 7 weeks to not get discouraged.
29/7: 54.9kg (1 week)
5/8-25/8: 53.5kg (3 weeks)
26/8: 53.8kg
2/9: 52.9kg when I refocused my goals
9/9: 53.1kg
I suppose in the grand scheme of things I wouldāve just gained 0.2kg from last weekās averages, which isnāt too bad albeit annoying since Iāve been working so hard. Hope it goes down soon, but it doesnāt mean Iāll binge or buffet just yet! LOL (am lowkey eyeing a Japanese buffet before I return to the UK heheh)
It could be that your body is now used to this deficit, the metabolism slows down and puts itself in survival mode.
So a soft reset, having few days at maintance level (3-4) may help you in the long run. I have heard people doing this when they hit plateaus.
As for not having visible results, make sure you compare pictures from before and after. Your mind will play tricks with you. YOU will not be a good person to judge.
At least in my experience. Keep up with not tracking! and try to loosen a bit if you can
@Latestfuels thatās an idea! but Iām not sure what thatāll mean though: eating as much as I burn or? Iām not quite sure what my āmaintenance caloriesā would be since Iām maintaining in a supposed deficitā¦
@GTIPuG AHAHA I didnāt end up not tracking, that was fake news oops. Couldnāt do it, too little control over food. Maybe a day or two in the future if I find myself obsessing over binging stemming from over-restriction, but I donāt think Iām going to stop tracking for now. Have allowed myself to eat outside food (albeit tracked and not often) though, so I donāt go insane and miss out on social events. I suppose the only reason could be if Iām not tracking outside food correctly? But thatād be odd because Iāve tracked food the same way for ages and this has never been a problem, plus it canāt be underestimating by hundreds of calories.
So if you see in my latest posts Iāve been pretty consistent food and exercise wise for the last 2 weeks, so Iām quite at a loss why itās just stalled. I still feel the usual slight hunger at night which usually premeditates a slight loss the next day or soā¦except now it doesnāt.
@fernly LOL if this keeps up for another week I think I just might be haha I donāt have massive amounts to lose but Iām trying to reach the āaestheticā goal nowā¦and I definitely have enough body fat to lose
Weight: 53.1kg wadafark and like literally this 1/10th of a kgā¦wtf is going on? 8 days and counting.
Food Intake: (1668kcal in)
1/2 ChocFS NewHuel
100g ea (cabbage, mushroom, pumpkin) w 5g nooch
1 Apollo + 3 chips more cookies
221g Milo ice cream purged some sigh
1 tin tuna
1/4 peanut cookie
Dinner @ Lagoonā4 pieces popiah, 3 rojak, carrot cake, oyster omelette, a lot of sambal stingray, 2 pieces salted egg chicken aand purged a bit again couldnāt deal
Activity: (2257kcal out)
2h 40min cycling (641kcal)
8374 steps total
Other Observations:
I guess Iāll just be glad Iām maintaining my 8kg loss while being able to eat out and enjoy treats. Iām pretty is what people call a plateau, and all the advice from online says to keep at it because the weight WILL drop, so Iām going to do that to see if my body does that too, in the name of science. If the plateau stays for the next week, Iāll go to the Japanese buffet HAHAHA
Could the āplateauā be due to the fact that you regularly eat foods that are not helpful for losing weight, such as cake, ice cream, cookies, bread etc. My understanding is that not all calories are created equal. 100kcal from ice cream is not the same as 100kcal from broccoli, for example. You could try reducing these foods down to every other day if you canāt quit them entirely.
I just wanted to pop my head up and say I LOVE picking up on this thread from time to time and, as a writer, Iām SO impressed with your consistency - even at times where you are barely conscious when you were sick.
You go girl! And donāt give yourself too much of a hard timeā¦
Weight: 52.9kg AWYISS. Lowkey disappointing but ehh I hope it sticks.
Food Intake: (1793kcal in)
112g NewHuel, ToffeeFS
200g cabbage, 100g enoki, 66g pumpkin
50g salmon skin
5g salted egg salmon skin
csbingeācookies&shiz
2 egg whites + 1 can tuna
taste ChocPB froyo
3/4 strawberry quest bar
Activity: (2116kcal out)
50min strength training leg day (85kcal burnt lmao)
1h dance
12,566 steps total
Other Observations:
I donāt think Iām losing much fat rn, but I must say that now, whenever I catch a glimpse of my reflection, I keep doing a double take because I actually quite like how I look! And dressing up is increasingly fun HAHA. I made a list of reasons I wanted to lose weight, when I was at 61ish kilos, and Iām starting to be able to tick many of those, so I suppose theyāre #nonscalevictories
stress ate today because really big friendship drama ;-;
What did this consist of Chris? Iām guessing your Fitbit measured this for you?
Just curious as I picked up an Alta HR for a laugh a couple of weeks ago. On leg day Iāll generally aim for 5 sets of 8 x 100kg squats (heavy squats screw my knees pretty badly so I stick to reps) and my Fitbit said I burned 90 calories.
However, I was probably more out of breath and more sweaty after my five sets than I am after a 10K. Seemed to me like the Fitbit was a little off. Not saying I burned a huge number, but certainly more than a measly 90.
Iām actually SO PROUD that I stuck with my consistent plan through the very discouraging 9 day plateau. Iām hoping this weight lasts, but I now know that so long as I keep to my habits, the results WILL follow even when it seems it wonāt.
IM RIDICULOUSLY EXCITED OMG IM 0.2KG AWAY FROM THE GOAL IVE HAD SINCE MARCH!!! Sorry for all the caps lock but AHHHHHHHHHHH ITS SO CLOSE I CAN TASTE IT. Unfortunately, I have a big dinner tonight which I lowkey now wish I could skip out on, but Iāll just do my best to eat only what Iāll enjoy eating, stop when Iām satiated (diminishing utility after), count calories etc.
Its my last week at home so thereās going to be a lot of socialising. I mightnāt be able to Huel fully on some days but Iāll still try to 12-8.
lel so i promptly BLEW my deficit/loss by kinda binging/the big fancy dinner out. It cost frikin 50 quid, so I desperately tried to get my moneyās worth which was kinda stupid but well. Wouldāve much preferred to have blown both money and my calories on the Japanese buffetā¦
I need to learn how to deal with overeating without purging lmao itās becoming worse(?) or more frequent especially since now I kinda know how to do it more easily ><
I think today, I kinda let loose a little on the food as a huge sigh of relief that weight loss still does and can happenā¦especially since Iād been hanging on fruitlessly for the last 9 days, not daring to loosen the reigns much if at all for fear that Iād exponentially gain! So oops wasnāt a great intake today, will be trying hard again for the next few days & gymming.
@Wendy_Shepherd Hmm can you elaborate what you mean by ā100kcal of broccoli is not the same as 100kcal of cookiesā? Sure it has different nutrients, and one is more satiating than the other, but according to calories in calories out (and the guy who lost weight eating purely Twinkies), 100kcal of either would mean the same for weight loss. Iāve also lost weight eating primarily ice cream for lunch in my more disordered past, so I donāt think thatās it. I wouldnāt know for sure though.
@Lighteater Awwwww thanks for this, your comment really made my day! ābarely consciousā hahahahaha too real. I too am pretty surprised Iāve made it this long journaling everyday. What kind of writing do you do?
@GTIPuG ooh howās your Fitbit experience been so far? Yeah, I suppose it aināt great at counting strength training sessions, which I donāt understand since itās supposed to measure heart rate and seems to do quite fine for cardio sessions. Uh it included squats, wide squats, leg press, leg curl and leg extensions
So the purging did not go unpunishedā¦I have a terrible sore throat and yeaaaaah itās good non-positive feedback that purging is BAD. But ugh it sucks because I know Iād have gained a lot more if I didnātā¦ Iāll try to manage my intake better and more accountably.
Itās a lil hard not just binging out on all the good food here and relaxing my rules when Iām leaving home in 6 daysā¦Ah well Iāll just keep trying my best. I wish I could hit 52kg already.