šŸ““ Daily Journal: Intermittent Fasting (16:8), ED Recovery and Weight Loss

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Day 23

HI FRIENDS! So Iā€™ve decided that Iā€™m going to do 100% Huel next week (and will be starting a new thread to document that challenge. Will link when I create it!) and am looking for fellow Huelers to go 100% together! :smiley: https://discuss.huel.com/t/looking-for-huel-challengers-challenge-100-1-week/8272?u=chrisjeffy98

Weight: 59.8kg shrugs

Huel Review: Hmm people have been raving about the Toffee Flavdrops but I donā€™t really taste it very much(?)

Food Intake: (~1700-1800kcal)

  • 1/2 cocoa Huel + 1/2 Huel w Toffee Flavdrops
  • 6 mini butterfinger cups (150kcal)
  • 3 ham (87kcal, 16g)
  • 50g chicken breast w 5g BBQ sauce
  • Kinda-bingeā€”20 raisins from muesli, chocolate from 5 brioche & cs
  • Dinner ā€“ {Girton Formal}
    A bite of bread w butter (~1/5 roll)
    3/4 ball falafel w pomegranate seeds
    ~1/2 Pork w carrots
    A bite of Japanese Cotton Cheesecake w orange & raspberries

Other observations:

  • After changing my sleeping pattern kinda my bowel movements have been disrupted lel.
  • Was SO HUNGRY at 12 haha my stomach was literally growling
  • 4.25pm: Just when I thought I was getting that binging thing under controlā€¦ I felt one coming on, and tried to get rid of it by picking healthier options ngl. With protein. Had ham and 50g chicken breast, but couldnā€™t get my mind off eating the raisins from muesli (yes Iā€™m weird and my mind just gets fixated on that one damn idea). So I ate 20 raisins from that. Then picked at a whole bunch of brioche (5)ā€™s mini chocolate chips. And c/sed. My mind is going crazy and kinda wants to binge but I WILL NOT. It feels like coming out of a dream I couldnā€™t control, that last hour. Ugh I forgot how timewastingbinging wasā€¦
  • I didnā€™t drink alcohol today! Yay!
  • Iā€™ve had p terrible binge urges today, especially when I came back from Formalā€¦I was almost tempted to break my IF-ing after 4 weeks of doing it (yes it was that strong), but NO. NO. Consistency is key :key:
  • Iā€™m kinda bummed Iā€™m not really losing weight but Iā€™m thankful Iā€™m not continuing to gain weight exponentially as I was before I started trying once more to get my diet in check. Iā€™m in control of my body. I got this.

@GTIPuG the way you say things can be really harsh/blunt haha but I guess one phrase struck me in a positive manner ā€œyou canā€™t break physicsā€. ED-and-recovery has made me take the long route of developing many unhealthy associations with numbers, especially since back then it seemed to be that if I -500kcal, Iā€™d be left with 1000kcal or less. Thatā€™s what started it all, reallyā€¦itā€™s not easy cutting as a 5 foot tall sedentary Asian girl :frowning: (yes I know I need to up my exercise but that aside haha). My body just doesnā€™t burn as many calories ~existing~ and it feels so unfair. That youā€™d be able to cut on 2000kcal while I gain.
Tl;dr I decided that Iā€™m ready to face reality and numbers again, and am learning to dissociate emotion from the number game. And that consistency beats yo-yo-ing. So here it is, plain and simple:
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Ngl one thing that worries me though: if I cut at 1500, then stop losing, then cut more until 1200kcal and stall againā€¦what do I do? I donā€™t wanna end up eating 800kcal haha. Any advice?

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