Day 1.4
Weight: 51.2kg whoa this is kinda cool! was planning on hitting 51.5 by the end of Nov
whoa HOOOOOLD UP I didn’t realise this, but if this weight remains, I’ll have lost 10.2kg?? For some reason the number ‘10’ has been on my mind for the longest time, just seemed like a nice round number to lose. Also 15.
Food Intake: (1540kcal in)
- 110g BerryHuel logged in MFP…does berry more cals?
- 60g Huel Granola
- 1 Huel Orange Bar my last one :’(
- 1/2 of (112g NewHuel, ChocFS)
- 60g Huel Granola
- 45g Huel Granola
- 3 mints
Activity: (1728kcal out)
Other Observations:
- BMs still irregular.
- I had a dream that after 3 days bp free I decided to go on a binge…but then I realised I did NOT want to break my Huel week, because even if I really wanted to binge I can do that next Monday LOL.
- Not b/p-ing is doing wonders for my being able to go to all my activities and lectures and actually functioning like a normal human!!!
- Also my weight trend is a lot more predictable and controllable since I don’t have to worry about calories retained from bp.
- Made BerryHuel with less water and it tastes great! Love the subtlety of it, could defo drink it on its own
- 5.56pm: Having binge urges…not so much wanting to binge but more of kinda wanting to eat something non-Huel.
- I’m having brain fog again!! Feels like this happens q a bit when I go 100% Huel hmm.
- 11pm: Today hasn’t been the best day. Exhausted, unproductive, binge urges, lurking around looking at food, BUT I didn’t b/p so well, that’s a plus.
- Am really stressed out about all my deadlines and just want to bp to get my mind off it
- 1am: Ugh I’m just so stressed all I have on my mind is bp bp bp because I want to take myself out of it all and give myself a reason to fall behind—it’s because of my ED not because I actually so incompetent
@Pavonine oh wow thank you so much!! Comments and people like you are what keep me going, and also make my day! 
(Also lowkey makes me wonder who’s lurking/been long-time lurkers—feel free to say Hi!! hehe)