First of all, I want to thank Huel for essentially saving my life.
In September, somebody put a date rape drug in my drink. I guess the brain is a funny old thing - nothing dramatic happened to me on that night, but something really disturbing happened to me psychologically: I developed a fear of swallowing. Sounds absolutely mental, I know, but it makes sense in the context. Prior to this, I absolutely loved my food. After this, the tiniest mouthful of food triggered a reaction in me - it was like mt body was resisting my mind. My throat was closing up and refusing to swallow normally. It sometimes took me an hour to eat a simple meal where once upon a time I would have wolfed it down in 5 minutes. Some times were particularly bad and I had to spit out the food. My brain panicked every time my mouth was full. I became convinced that if I tried to swallow, my throat wouldn’t listen and I would choke.
To make matters worse, I have always been naturally very thin. Although I’m 5’9’’, the very heaviest I’ve ever been, in a period when I was chowing down on takeaways, huge carby meals, junk food and hitting the pub daily, I weighed 63kg.
With this swallowing problem (its called phagophobia, I’m writing it here in case anyone runs a search), the weight started dropping off, and for the first time in my life, I became terrified. Being thin anyway meant I was very quickly becoming extremely skinny but it was outside of my control. I dropped down to 52kg, the lowest I’ve ever weighed.
Enter Huel. Thanks to Huel I was able to stop losing the weight.
The good news is through mindfulness, meditation and buddhist techniques, in December my fear dissipated. Its been about 6 weeks now and thanks to Huel and proper eating, I’ve put on 3kg so I now weigh 55kg. My goal is to hit 63kg (I’ve started lifting weights too).
So thank you, Huel.
And if any women are interested in gaining weight and lifting weights, I’ll post on here semi regularly with updates.