Hello everyone. I have just received my first shipment of Huel and today was my first day.
I am 37, m, 6’1", and I weighed 431.2 lbs this morning. Not sure what that is in kgs.
I have been struggling with food addiction since 2010 or so, when my first marriage fell apart and I ballooned up to 450 the first time.
Then I got angry and lost 180 pounds in 9 months in 2014 by eating 1800 calories a day and doing 3 hrs on the elliptical 5 days a week. I weighed and measured everything, and ate the same exact meals day in and day out. I also wasn’t working or going to school or anything.
I have a lot of lean mass beneath my mountains of flab - body scan when I was 400 said I had 204 lbs of lean mass - so when I got to 270, my lowest weight since high school, I looked freaking amazing. Size 38 jeans.
I looked so amazing I got a second wife. She is awesome.
Then 5-6 years later I am almost back to where I was. The weight crept on little by little - and I had such an ego because of my previous success. “what’s another ten pounds? I can lose that easy I’m the weight loss king!”
For the past year or two I’ve been losing 20 lbs by trying to replicate my extreme protocol from before. But now I have a wife and a 3 yr old and a job - things I didn’t have when I did it the first time. Then I would react and eat like crap for 4 days and gain 25.
Something in my head breaks when I eat over 1800 calories when trying to lose weight and makes me think I failed. Then mix that with my food addiction and I’ll end up easily putting away 7-8k calories in a day, then try a ridiculously low number the next. I was never focused on giving my body what it needed, only trying to shed pounds as quickly as possible.
I kept seeing huel advertised on Reddit, and I finally bit. I was reluctant because I’ve done everything - keto, vegan, vegetarian, pescatarian, the Penn Gillette nothing but potato diet, Paleo, caveman, fruitarian - all combined with intermittent fasting in different ways. Paleo,
So when I saw what huel was I got really excited. I had great success when I ate the same meal every day - I think it helps me make food a chore in my head. But cooking chicken breast and sweet potatoes and broccoli is a lot of work - and that amount of work is always there to suggest I can put off eating right for another week.
But now I have no excuse. All I have to do is shake up my meal. And I’m glad huel doesn’t taste amazing. It’s good. But not like some of the super sweet protein shakes I’ve drank in the past (and I’ve tried a ton - they used to cheer when they saw me coming into GNC because I would ask them to sell me supplements.
So I am going 100%. I’ve read enough threads on here to know that everyone is going to come out of the woodwork to tell me I shouldn’t go 100% because I’ll have ridiculous diarrhea andy body won’t be used to it. But in my experience, my body is able to switch around to drastically different diets and it only takes a couple of days. And it’s the weekend so if I have to spend it on the toilet that’s ok with me.
It’s also all psychological. I’ve been preparing myself to say “I just don’t eat food now.”. That makes it easier to push away temptation.
I know this is a freaking essay, but I that’s it. Hopefully I can use this forum to keep myself accountable.