I second this point. The mind (as you surely know) can play tricks on you, and often you are not the best person to judge yourself.
Day 277
Weight: 50.9kg
Food Intake: (1428kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MochaFS Huel, 1 SuperFit chocolate protein shake, 8 Extra Zartbitter wafers, 2 butterfingers
- Snackā300g broccoli w 8g nooch, 4g mustard, 1 35g Layenberger beef protein snack, 1 PowerBar Peanut Chocolate
- Dinnerā1/2 MochaFS Huel, 150g chicken slices, 100g raw carrots, 1/2 DM toffee bar
- Waterā4.75L
Activity: (2210kcal out)
- 14,149 steps total
- 1/2h TRX (110kcal)
- 22min-1/2h core stability (68kcal)
- 15min chill walk, 5% 3.8kmh
Other Observations:
- 2019 goal: Drink 2L water/day! Iāve never kept track of my water intake, but apparently itās good for your health and skin haha. Tbh itās been 16 minutes and Iāve already drunk 750ml so it doesnāt seem like itās gonna be a problem
- 1.16pm: LOL itās barely halfway through the day and Iām nearly done with the 2L I knew I loved water.
- A lil sick of Huel Bars but my Huel Granola order hasnāt come for the last 1.5 weeks so
- 2.59pm: Done with the 2L bottle while drinking t normallyā¦it seems a lot of people struggle with 8 glasses of water a day thoughā¦? Any ideas why haha I thought itād be more challenging LOL
- I know I didnāt bust my ass at the gym today but itās okay, that wasnāt my goal. My goal was to get my butt there & do the workouts and I did.
@Wendy_Shepherd @Latestfuels fair enough, sounds sensible will do and thanks! Iām still months away from that being possible though but yeah will keep that in mind
This is why I think you may not be the best judge of your own body shape!
I remember being 19/20 and a similar weight. I was super skinny as did hours of walking my dogs every day, plus Iām a tiny build also. But even that skinny I felt a bit āflabbyā so I can relate to what youāre saying. But its not excess fat, itās just that I wasnāt toned up because I wasnāt doing any exercise that built or toned muscles. If you do weight training and toning exercises, you will have more muscle and wonāt feel soft n flabby (like you did before) so to speak! Also bear in mind that 19 on the BMI scale is literally right on the edge of being underweight, and as muscle weighs more than fat, if you have muscle tone, 45kg is a really low weight.
You are literally an ideal weight for your height right now, so maybe stop worrying about numbers now and just focus on toning up. If you are well toned you will weigh more but feel super awesome
Youāve done amazing this year to reach your goal weight. I think weight loss is a bit like artwork (yāknow when youāre painting and you think ooo I just need to do a bit more here or change that bit there and you can end up over-working it) - the skill is knowing when to stopā¦ and sometimes it takes someone else to tell you, because itās almost impossible to see for yourself when youāve reached a point of āperfectionā!
@Wendy_Shepherd true! although I definitely donāt have body dysmorphia; not everyone with EDs canāt see their body objectivelyāI might just have a lil too unrealistic expectations. Would get second opinions tho good suggestion :))
@ChristinaT ah fair enough thanks for that!! Itās useful to get feedback on where I should place my goal at healthily. And yeah I do suppose Iāll start trying to tone up and gain more muscle; 18-20% body fat & aesthetics is more what Iām going for (SORZ VANITY HAHAHA) more than just weight.
Although I would mention that thereās a different scale for Asians bc we have a different frame, and WHOās scale is Western centered.
(Underweight is still <18.5, but more of healthy would be 18.5-22.9 instead of 18.5-24.9)
Love the painting metaphor!
@jeffy89 sounds like you have a pretty okay goal and are clued up! 18-20% body fat for female gym-goers is okay I think (although hard work - fair-dos to you lol)
And yes youāre right about Asians and different frames. The BMI thing is a bit rubbish really and only a very vague guideline and doesnāt really fit anyone even vaguely athletic.
Iām also mixed heritage and have a very different frame to most other white British females, so take my guidelines from myself and have found calorie counters, fitbits, BMI scales BMR calcs etc etc to be fairly inaccurate. I think the best method is to learn as we go along, see what works, see how we feel, and definitely always ask someone you can trust to be honest for their opinion also (ie not your mum or partner or best friend LOL)
Day 278
Weight: 50.8kg
Food Intake: (4187kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MatchaFS Huel, 200g seafood mix (150kcal/30g protein!), Hartleyās SF raspberry jelly pot (3kcal)
- 2x bp
- Waterā4L
Activity: (1854kcal out)
- 10,307 steps out
Other Observations:
- Lowkey wish the Christmas-New Year weight Iād put on were fake weight that came off way quicker, but itās okay. Iāll be thankful. 0.8kg is doable if I keep not-bingeing.
- Drinking water doesnāt make my weight increase! (An irrational slight fear Iād started to develop)
Yes, water has zero calories, and what you drink in, you will pee out. Barring health issues that cause water retention, of course!
Day 279
Weight: 50.9kg
Food Intake: (1405kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MatchaFS Huel, 30g Huel Granola, 80g crayfish tails, 65g cockles
- Snacksā110g Huel Granola dayum have I missed this, 1 packet roasted brussel sprouts (84+10kcal), 50g Button mushroom
- Dinnerā44g mushroom, 1 Hartleyās jelly, 250ml berry RTD, 70g Huel Granola
- Waterā6.3L
Activity: (1896kcal out)
- 11,164 steps total
Other Observations:
- Huel Berry RTD: First impressionsāI grew into the taste. Itās p good! Itās very thickā¦like I-know-thereās-thickener-in-this-thick. I still prefer powdered Huel (thank goodness) mostly because I like my Huel thinner, but yeah the powdered Huel and Huel RTD are definitely very different products altogether. Would be great if convenience stores started stocking Huel RTD so I could get chilled Huel on the go :))
- Lmao I basically ate through my entire 8h eating window Iām soooo snacky but ehh at least it was mostly all healthy and voluminous! So stuffed haha.
- Today has been great.
- I think Iām addicted to Huel Granolaā¦
ITS FINALLY HERE WAHOO
Btw does anyone know why they used superglue to shut the box LOL that was a workout xD
Day 280
Weight: 50.9kg
Food Intake: (1350kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MochaFS Huel, 150g shrimp, 70g Huel Granola
- Snacksā1 Americano, 1/2 Blueberry Muffin Nakd Bar
- Dinnerā~1 Fulfil Bar, 1/2 MochaFS Huel, 25g caramel roulade, 2 butterfingers, 30g Huel Granola, 67g mushroom
- Waterā5L
Activity: (2278kcal out)
- 1h Strength & Conditioning (242kcal at 42min, 280kcal at 48min)
- 17,536 steps total
Other Observations:
- Kinda surprised I didnāt lose: was kinda hungry last night and this morning haha and definitely had a deficit. Ah well. Whoosh perhaps. And PMS. At least I can now attribute weight fluctuations to stable rational things if I donāt bp.
- SO PROUD. SO MANY SUCCESSES TODAY!!! Life is turning around. Itās not gonna be perfect, but there is hope.
Hello. I have just joined to say I read your whole thread yesterday! Loved your honesty, sense of humour and the fact youāve kept on posting. What do you think of the RTD?
@Huella_Deville hiya!! firstly, love the username xD
secondly, you read the whole log in a day?!!?! hats off to you thatās p dang impressive (that you waded through all my random ramblings LOL)! Thank you and glad you enjoyed it! Iām somewhat surprised Iām still posting, myself.
Re: RTD Review
- Taste: Took a few mouthfuls to get used to, but a nice and enjoyable berry taste overall.
- Texture: Very thick.
- Overall aesthetic: SO PRETTY I love how the bottle looks; so minimalistic and just idk something Iād love carrying around even without getting paid to look like Iām a Huel ambassador also decked full out in Huel merchandise 24/7
Day 281
Weight: 50.5kg hehe diet & exercise & no bp!!
Food Intake: (~1549kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MatchaFS Huel, 60g Huel, 150g shrimp
- 2355kcal bp (~558-778kcal)
- Dinnerā69g 3 mushrooms, 150g carrots, 47g Huel Granola
Activity: (2171kcal out)
- 1h Bodypump (~222-248kcal)
- 12,690 steps total
Other Observations:
- I dreamt that my friends kidnapped me to Wales on a boatā¦and what was my biggest concern? That my half-opened Huel RTD was going to spoil AND I didnt have Huel with me for meals. LMAOOOOOOO #huelis4lyf
- Patience, consistency, moderation, and a whoosh. Although I think I mightnāt have such a huge deficit I couldnāt rly fall asleep bc I was quite hungry I was almost considering eating at 3am.
Looks like a hipster drink
Magnesium levels are sufficient for lucid dreams.
Day 282
Weight: 50.2kg ehehe NEARLY THERE
Food Intake: (1444kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MatchaFS Huel + 50g teriyaki chicken + 42g veggies + 90g Huel Granola
- Snacksā3 butterfingers, 1 M&S dark chocolate _can you tell what time of the month it is _, 1/2 Huel RTD, 165g frozen berries
- Dinnerā75g Huel Granola, 1/2 protein bar, 1/3 protein bar, 1 jelly pot
- Waterā4.5L
Activity: (2203kcal out)
- 55min Zumba (344kcal)
- 18,468 steps total
Other Observations:
- Nearly skipped the gym to take a nap bUT GOT OFF MY BUTT AND DID IT. Yaaaaahs.
Day 283
Weight: 50.2kg
Food Intake: (~1544kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MochaFS Huel, 150g shrimp, 1/2 babybel light, 1 ryvita, 1/2 tomato, 1 string cheese, 120g Huel Granola
- 2533kcal bp (~633kcal)
- Dinnerā1/2 tomato, 30g 3 prawns, 1 diet Dr Pepper, 1 Hartleyās blackcurrant jelly
Activity: (2216kcal out)
- 1h 6min gym strength training (300kcal)
- 16,659 steps total
Other Observations:
- My emotional reaction to my weight seems a lot more muted nowā¦
Day 284
Weight: 49.8kg !!! (or bloody 50.2kg if my scale is malfunctioning)
Food Intake: (1249kcal in)
- Lunchā1/2 MochaFS Huel, 60g Huel Granola, 200g Thai chicken noodle soup + 1/2 ryvita thin
- Snacksā72g 3 mushrooms w hotsauce, 150g raspberries, 1/2 MĆ¼ller light carrot cake & 1/2 banoffee pie, 110g cooked prawns, 3 mini butterfingers
- Dinnerā1/2 StrawberryFS Huel, 1/2 packet crickets , 1 tomato, 1 string cheese
Activity: (2291kcal out) hoo dayum accidental 1000+kcal deficitā¦
- 14,356 steps total
- 1/2h Functional Training (150kcal)
- 25 1/2min walk 6% 4.8kmh (160kcal)
- 1/2h Core Stability (120kcal)
- 21min walk 6% 4.8kmh (~130kcal)
Other Observations:
- gRaH with the hunger I feel I expect to be losing a lil! LOL donāt mind me, just being impatient (it was 8am and 50.2)
- idk if I trust my scale haha it jumps to different numbers but welp IāLL TAKE IT
- Trying StrawberryFS later!! Hope it tastes as good as it smells!
- Throwback to 17y.o. me when I started recovery: āitās okay, itās fine, you can lose weight when youāre 20.ā it almost made me cry thinking of putting ātrying to lose weightā off for 3 yearsā¦and here we are. Iām 20, and Iāve lost 11.6kg so far, gradually. Is it okay to be super stoked and proud of myself?
- Officially lighter than when the 50kg 17yo me decided to crash diet in desperate attempt for 6th form and -boys- (ew Iām cringing so hard), which triggered the onset of BED & a shit ton of bingeing :ā) Aaaaaaand armed with a lot more knowledge & understanding of reality.
- Exercise: Itās like Iām learning how to run on autopilot before my brain registers āwait I havenāt made an excuse yet like uh, I donāt feel like working out!ā but oops too late Iām already on my bike cycling to the gym feels great, and I rarely ever do regret going. Even if it wasnāt the best workout, I know I put in the work and didnāt succumb to excuses or as my dad calls āthe Body Thingā. MIND OVER MATTER!
- StrawberryFS: So good!! Reminds me of strawberry milk I used to have as a kid; will purchase the larger packet! (I wish there were smaller multi-packs tho; my MochaFS is still very much existent even though Iāve been using it almost daily. Have another huge packet of chocolate & matcha & no money in the bank )
- I coulda sworn I was eating for the entirety of my 8h window today LMAO how is it under 1300kcal? Ah well. Iām SO FULL tho!! Iām glad I didnāt think to restrict to make sure I lose even more weight, bc I truly do want to fuel my body and not wake up starving.
- Not sure how to feel about having such a large deficit. Iāll count it as one-offs bc I donāt want to set too high an expectation of myself & become hyper-restrictive.
- My BMR is less than 1250kcal itās actually tragic
Surprised nobody else mentioned this, that glue is crazy strong!
Iām surprised you found the taste unusual at first, I thought the berry RTD was out of this world! I thought the vanilla RTD was nice at first but tastes like real vanilla more than the toffee-ish taste of the New and Improved powderā¦ itās more subtle and thereās an āinterestingā flavour underneath that reminds me a little of the oatiness of versions gone by. I wasnāt crazy about it at firstā¦ but now I find myself craving that one more! I even wish my regular vanilla shake made with powder tasted more like RTD vanilla
Keep doing what youāre doing sounds like 2019 is going well